my diary

22/5----thursday
the day has reach liou....
finally exam end liou...
happy n sad....
happy cos exam is over n holiday is coming
sad cos really difficult to accept wat answer i wrote on exam paper..
i duno whether i take so many tuition is useful ornot...
SPM left 6 more month onli
haiz....
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23/5----friday
today is teacher day...
when i reach school canteen is saw siew bee very worry
she worry ws will come late or sleep late wor...
den i teman her until ws come...
den ws help sb balut de hadiah for teacher..
ws ask me to balut de bookmark for miss hor de
den i say i dunno how 2 balut mah...
so i balut lo den i kena marah...
i already told her tat i duno how to do but she still angry me..
at tat time really wan to kill her lo...
after finish liou,perhimpunan start lo...
when rehat de time,v when bac to class
shin wee play her hp n take photo...
many "yong sui " picture she took
v play in de class until perhimpunan start...
after end liou... got drill
i duno wat happen to me...
all my command wrong liou....
de most i remember is 1 of de girl say me very teruk
she say she even better than me...
she mayb rite than im teruk but i already try my best to learn..
i know im slow learner but bcos of her word i tell myself i cant let she look
down on me... moreover she is under my group..
i reli wan to kick her from my group...
her kes suan liou... dun wan to care...
after eat lunch wit sc,ws n ym
i go jusco wit ws..
i wan to buy short pants but dun have de kind i wan..
later v go carrfour buy ws de sleeping bag...
den v go to the store...
when bac home i take lrt...
after reach liou i decided to call my dad..
i only have 20cent syling la...
1st i call my dad hp but no1 answer so suan..
2nd i call my house phone den my bro say no1 free to fetch me...
so i need to wait bus lo...
after i wait for 30min i can tahan liou...
i very tired liou, i want to bac home...
so i decided 2 call my dad once more times
but no syling liou...
so i do smth very memalukan
i go to each of the public phone to find syling...
so so lucky... i found it...
den i call my dad, later he come n fetch me
wakaka.. the worst thing i done for the day...

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24/5---saturday
today got bac gb...
quiet bored cos many dint bac gb meeting today
onli ws,vanessa,csc,me got go...
end meeting go yam cha wit ws...
suddenly wonder y every times v all go yamcha sure rain wan
but today dint rain wor...
at nite....
ready to pack thing.. going to gbsl camp
but 1.00am onli start packing..

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25/5 till 28/5----sunday till wed
wake up late liou...
so late for yam cha wit sc,ym,n ws...
after yam cha, me, ws n ym go to take lrt to sentul...
after reach liou...
so weird cos got 1 guy ask us go in the church...
but his hand call us come but he make sound tat halau us..
kaka..
go there early, so v need to help to clean the place lo
1 funny thing...
got one girl call officer as "aunty"
den v all swt liou..
and many girl call officer as teacher cos their r school bass de..
during de camp not many thing tat i learn but i learn how to communicate
wit other tat i duno them...
many new friend i make...
tis camp make me und more abt myself...

yesterday,sat...
as wat have plan last week...
all go early to church to practice band for pess enrolment...
the performance is still ok...
but need to practice hard for the coming week..

after the band,v go to eat our lunch..
v chit-chat at there...
i think tis can reduces our stress due to exam..
n help to closer our relationship
cos v just meet one week 1 times...

after that fion,sc,n me borrow conference room..
den v start our revision...
inside there v not onli do our revision..
sc already sot liou tat day
she climb the table,play de window,sit on the table..
sot liou le...
but i think she is very stress liou la
hehe.. so funny think bac wat she do..

after a while,v go to brigade room 2 continue our study
cos the bb need the room...

after tat around 6pm
v got meeting abt de enrolment day the thing
at tat meeting...
i heard smth tat i feel weird..
abt jenifer..
i cant imagine those word tat she say do lydia..
i thing she alreadi change liou..
i relly duno y she become like tat lo
after tat v continue at mamak...
at mamak v heard some problem face by a leader::our capt. pui yee
become a leader is not easy..
so all leader work hard lo..
keke^-^

SuFFer dAy

onli leave 3 more day..
our exam finish lo...
BUT
tis 3 days is the most suffer day
bcos is de most difficult paper
(i think la)
so need to work hard lo...
try ur best,,,do ur best,,,
aiya.. think tis way la..
after exam holiday wor...
den can relax lo...

tis week, i really "geram" wit 1 person
she is "pengkhianat", "penipu", "pengampu"
i really wan to noe y she do those thing lo...
how can she does this...
she dun have brain n heart de wor
bcos of her; other person is suffer...
if i can wor i really wan to kill her...
besides, the teacher also de same...
cant he think abt his student..
study for so many years until duno wat MBA..
but also de same...
duno how to think for other person de..

Dun no y,today i really "geram" lo...
as everybody noe china is facing "gempa bumi"
really sad when see the news...
many is suffer,,
the kids,,,
the old person,,
the ladies,,
even the man also need to face those bencana...
haiz,,, so cham,,really cham,,,
but
still got country fight with each other
2 get benefit and show their power...
wat kind of world is tis...
someone is suffer here,someone is having war there
cant their think of other person
having war is just waste of money, n time
many will death too...

this teach me when do thing must thing before...
thing of the "kesan" first...
haha
i usually din think before do thing de
then i will menyesal de...
kekeke...

my diary

today sat normal lo bac gb...
haha, today i sleep late again...
so late bac church lo i thought ym n ws sure scold me 'kau kau' de
but they just say onli..
they already normal liou cos i always late de..

before band time, captain suddenly talk abt pess enrolment...
talk abt our duty on tat day..
den say tat v hv 2 prapare for dance...
oh no i say in heart...
cos i noe i not good in dance
scared make de dance not nice n many thing la...

when ready for band roll call,,,,
suddenly saw sl bac..
den i wonder y she can come out during tis time..
den i onli noe tat NS got holiday de wor..

band time...
play cymbal..
be4 tat i really got mood to play cymbal
(after c de video)
but everything aso de same...
but today i got little bit like back my band
means i got little spirit in band
hope tis can continue la...

after class den got drill..
walau tired....
although only drill about 30 minute
because de punishment lo...
1 is 10 times push up
den second time 40times push up
almost all cant tahan liou when until 20 times
but punishment is punishment
u need to do it...
lucky all also able to do it...

after meeting den go mamak...
v talk abt de school enrolment...
walau so beautiful if wat v think can able 2 to it...
when parade got band play by ours gb
so yeng..

at home..
when im eating my dinner suddenly the bell ring
tis means tat my grandmother got problem
so v all rush to her home
den say her sit at de floor
she just fall down n cant stand
den my dad n mum help her lo
when i saw my grandmother a kind of feeling come out
duno how to say
she really change a lot
a few years, she still healthy
she was fat last time...now thin
last time her sound can be so loud especial scold people
now her sound is very very soft
i cant understand wat she talk..
is really scared me...
lucky she is ok...
hope she will well soon...

tis few day is exam day...
like usual la exam day, all concentrate on studies..
so less time chatting wit family n friend...
i dun no y tis few day i feel strange...

many nonsence thing come to my mind..
tis make me so stress...
although those thing is nonsence..
BUT
it keep "fan" me..
tis make me cant concentrate on my studies anymore..

today, i feel tat..
i hv less time communicate wit my family
de bond wit family is not as strong as last time..
less communication wit family member...
each time i bac home..
i dunno wat to chat wit them..
especial with my dad..


yesterday i argue wit my sis abt de light
i noe yesterday i was wrong
but i still pretend tat i'm right
i noe i was stubborn
although tis is not de 1st time i argue wit my sis
but duno y i feel very sorry to her
maybe now mature liou..(hehe)
noe how to care ppl liou..(sometime onli)
SORRY ar 'jie'


i noe my mum is very very tired..
but i din help her...
i always use exam as 'alasan'
my mum noe tat i got exam so she
din ask me to help her
i really selfish..
i won't do thing when no one ask me 2 do
although my mum is very tired...
i din even help my mum do housework although im free
i feel tat im useless....
i din help my family when they need help]
i feel sori to them...

i noe wat i should do
BUT I dint do it!!!!
haiz.....

i should change my behavior now....
BEFORE TOO LATE...
I HOPE I CAN DO IT...

im useless person.....